Writing my eulogy

In 2020, when the world slowed during the pandemic, something inside me finally had space to catch up.

For years, I had been moving quickly, doing the things I believed I was supposed to do. I had built a career, a family, and a life that looked stable from the outside.

But when everything paused, I felt a deep exhaustion I could no longer ignore.

In that stillness, I looked around and realized something that broke my heart: the life I was living didn’t feel like my own.

So, I did something unusual.

I wrote my eulogy.

I asked myself a simple but confronting question:
If I died today, what would be said about how I lived?

What had I actually created with the time I had been given?

The answers brought tears and grief. They revealed the gap between the life I had built and the life that felt true inside of me.

After sitting with that grief, I wrote a second eulogy.

This time I wrote about the life I wished to live. The kind of presence I hoped to bring to my children, my relationships, and the world around me.

I realized that the distance between those two eulogies was the life I had not yet fully stepped into.

Since that day, I have been trying to live into that second eulogy.

Not perfectly. Not all at once.

But consciously.

Along the way, I began to notice something: life wasn’t changing in straight lines. It moved through cycles. Moments of unraveling, remembering, creating, and integrating.

Again and again, I found myself moving through what I now call the spiral.

The Spiral Way was born from that recognition.

It is a path of remembering our inner light and learning to consciously express the life that is asking to move through us.

And like the eulogy exercise itself, it begins with a simple question:
If you fully surrendered to the finality that is this one life, what would you want to create with the time you have left?